1. situation
I’m cramming alot of things right now, but still trying to pass them all in time. I’m also very attached to my fandom and finding it hard to allot time to do school work because of it.
2. goals
I want to pass a good university and take up the course of my choice. After that, I would want to have a succesful and happy life, with my family and buddies. ^_^
3. ethical concerns
I’m worrried about the fact that the others seem to forget about good manners whenever they interact with other people. As for my own ethical concern, I fear that I’m not getting enough sleep these past few days and that I don’t spend time for studying as much as how I did a few years ago.
4. more points of view?
I sometimes have the feeling that I don’t care about what the others are thinking as much as I should be. Though, often times, I try to situate myself with others especially if I really feel bad about whatever happened or is happening to them. Sometimes I even wonder if one situation looks different (and not how I saw it) for another person. I even guess that this may be one cause of why wars are created between different races. They have different beliefs and ways of thinking, that they find the opponent’s view to be mockery of theirs.
5. stakehold
I think that whenever I do or act upon something, the whole future changes. If I had my bag flinging over my shoulder, not caring about anything with my surroundings, there is a possibility that it would be snatched easily. Unlike if I placed it over my shoulder and protected it, then it will be harder to get and I’ll still have my bag with me ’til I get out of the mall and get back home. I always believe that if ever I make a bad move, my parents will be the greatly affected people close to me. If anything happens to me, they have to be the ones who must take the consequences no matter how heavy or light a matter it is.
6. consequences
If I don’t study well, my grades will be affected really badly. I, then, won’t be able to actually understand everything that passed through my ears that then directed to my brain. My parents will be ashamed of having a daughter like me, if I slack of throughout the entire time that I originaly should’ve directed to my study. Last is and sadly, I won’t be able to get into the school that I like. Then thus starts my life’s donwfall.
7. role reversal
I honestly try to situate myself as other people sometimes. If I was my sister, then I would be sad because I used to kick her when she was small (but I stopped that now…realizing that it was useless doing so). If I was some hollywood star, though I cannot imagine it that clearly, then I guess the stress would get into me, but it’s okay since the spotlight is good enough payment for the hardwork done with the projects. If I was boy, would I be doing things that I do as a girl as well? I mean, it is in terms of unisex hobbies like watching TV and getting too much into books. Would I like cars more than I love them now? ^_^ I think that it would be fun if ever I get the chance to see myself as a boy in another dimension.
8. am i doing what it right?
For now, I think I’m doing okay and I feel that I could somehow achieve my goals one day in the future. Although, I’m still molding myself and still trying to strive in surviving this life. The wrong thing that I’m doing is that I’m spending too much time at the computer, to the point that my eyes are starting to hurt now. I don’t think that wearing glasses won’t be beneficial for me.
9. alternatives
I guess my alternative for regaining my passion to study, is to look up to people that I think have had great success with their lives. If ever I fail at my dream (*knock on wood*), then I’ll switch to my other dreams.
10. justification
I think I can fairly justify my decisions and actions. I always try to act accordingly to what I believe in, and I make it a point that I must decide on decisions that would be the best to make. I don’t stick to what others are telling me to do. I still have my own beliefs to base on, and I’m happy that I have them. If ever I act unaccordingly, then I usually resort to getting mad for disgracing myself. I’m not saying that I aim to be refined and excellent in things, rather, I try to be near that — by being myself and by acting on based on what I think would be right and proper (as a person) to do.
